February 11, 2007 - Time Like Molasses

I'm importing old entries from a journal on another site, so dates obviously won't match up just yet.

I never thought I'd let myself feel like this again, but here I go, right back where I started. I promised myself I'd never let myself fall for a guy this hard without having some evidence to back it up. I promised myself I'd never get hurt again. I promised myself I'd change. But no matter where I look, I see his face. There is nothing I can do to escape. I think I may love him, but does he love me back? This waiting is about to kill me. The indecision and apathy is smothering me. I'd give anything to send him a letter telling him how I feel, but I only have his myspace and sending an email would make me seem like a cheesy dweeb. But if I wait any longer, I think I may go insane. Only eleven hours until I see him again... Please, please don't let me dig myself a deeper hole.